Wednesday, June 30, 2004

ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD...!!!

Today's a special day for me... took off today specially to commemerate this unique event...! 30th June 2004... the day i officially stepped into the civilian world, no longer barred by the regimental rules of the armed forced, no longer using the green ID for identity but instead flashing your pink card with my Primary 6 photo on it...the clerk took out this small card holder and my fast eyes stole a fast glance on it... there it was, my cute face on my dearly missed pink IC. the feeling was so overwhelming...!

After the rest of my camp mates collected theirs as well, we proceeded to yishun's long johns for lunch... after which i proceeded to my aunt's saloon for a hair cut, dye, and highlight! changed my hairstyle now... no more little spikey do for... although i still can... but looks weird la haha... but overall think it looks good wa hahaha...

met my camp mates back for a movie outing... watched spiderman 2!!! freaking great show man... seriously dunno wud adjective i can use for such an eager;y anticipated movie... worth ur money guys... catch it asap...!

Went home after that and gave my parents a shock... think it's the hair... brown and ash... think they didnt expect such a colour maybe... but anywayz tomolo's still gotta work morning shift... my last day over there... let's give my colleagues a shock tomorrow... a new me!! wa hahaha...




Boredz... Wong at 10:34 PM

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Sunday, June 27, 2004

Ooooooo.......

the estastic feeling of laying my tired ass down on the leather chair, and relieving the tension played on my jello legs, is undescribable now... im back at home after a morning shift at DKNY Wisma, and it's a great feeling to be able to surf and blog right now, seven pm in the evening, in the comfort of my dearly missed home. These three days have been... well... tiring, to put it in an understatement. Maybe i slacked too much already... then to put me to retail work all of a sudden was a shock to my legs. Haiz...4 more days...

Anywayz, 2 full and one morning shift later, i have missed 3 quarter-finals of the Euro cup 2004. So sad, cuz England and Portugal was a seat magnet( My dear England lost btw, thru penalty shootout ), and not able to see France crumble to minnows Greece was truly regrettable. And last night Holland won thru a penalty shootout as well!! Surprising...cuz they always lose penalty shootouts...

Alright, im becoming that so-called summarised commentator again...hee... but tonight ima try to catch the last quarter finals involving the Czechs and the Danes... cuz im working afternoon shift tomorrow! Can sleep thru the morning. Tc guys... cya soon.





Boredz... Wong at 6:58 PM

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Saturday, June 26, 2004

Juz a short post to keep my readers up-to-date...

Today was my first day at work at DKNY! woke up at 730 am to prepare stuff... breakfast... didnt want to be late for first day... knew some nice colleagues... able to talk cok and stuff... but the standing sucks. Stand from 10 something to 4 pm then head to meal break, met with jere to makan lucky plaza's chicken rice ( YUM !). once i sat down the feeling was like... wow.. didnt know sitting could be sucha luxury for a long time. continued to stand till 930pm then knock off at last!! Met with him again, headed to centre point Mac's to makan and talk cok... went hm around 11 something...

Now my knees hurting like F... but overall it's much more slacker then giordano which i worked at before NS...

Full shift again the next day... haiz... 6 more days!! Which means i cant go out with ya guys !! So sorry man... no more mahjong too... sobz. hmm... val... let ya off for 6 more days... u can haf ur revenge next time, but i think u might haf to try harder lol...hee.

Boredz... Wong at 12:06 AM

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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Euro Fever!!!

Even a skinny computer geek such as i was inadventently pushed into such a manic craze. Weeks before Euro 2004 started as my brother subscribed to a new line at StarHub, we were given a year's free of SCV channels!! So besides the basic channels we had to subscribe to the sports channels which we had to pay. Indeed, the money was worth it, as every time i watched i would be immersed mostly in sports such as pool, billiard aka snooker, tennis, basketball ( GO PISTONS!! FUCK LAKERS MAN ) and lastly... SOCCER! i was able to watch the last few games of the English Premier League, another good reason to sign up sports channel.

However, true to such timing, i would be able to watch Euro 2004, a world class, international tournament, one of immense stature, in the pure comfort of my dear home, on my couch! I can't call myself a really avid fan of soccer, but the novelty still kicks in real good!

The first match of the whole tournament began with the host nation, Portugal, playing against the lowly Greeks. This match makes what's so nice about soccer; the supposedly mighty Portugal, host nation and sutff with tons of supporters, crumbled in the hands of minute Greece. I remember the story of David and Goliath. Everything's possible. Even love. ( gag, i must not digress!! :( )

An even more unbelievable match was England vs France. England, who held the lead with 1-0 for 90 mins, conceded a free kick right outside the penalty box. I had a bad feeling about this and true enough, the legend of the French soccer team, Zinedine Zidane, struck a neat shot down into the English net, leaving the whole English team dazed and dejected. But the worst was yet to come. At the last minute of stoppage time, ENGLAND CONCEDED A PENALTY!! WUD THE FUCK RITE! Again Zidane was there to take the penalty, and sent James, the English keeper, the wrong way, giving France the last minute lead and eventually winning the game obviously. Pretty shitty game for an England team supporter such as i.

I'm not going to be a summarised commentator of every game so far in the tournament but what im trying to say that this year's Euro 2004 packs a few surprises. Spain is out.Even Italy didnt make it to the quarter finals due to a bad result last night. Our dear Greece awaits their next match with France in the quarters. Many more surprises await us. I shudder at the thought. And thus, im going to sacrifice my sleep every night, at 2.45 am, to catch one.









Seriously man! i think i should really get a life! Blogging about Euro 2004! OMG! wud the fuck's happening to me..........



Boredz... Wong at 1:20 PM

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Tuesday, June 22, 2004

I woke up with a bloody big knock on my room door... my reluctant eye lids opened and found the rotund body of dear Ma screaming at my ears... telling me to wake up... if not for my numbed senses prior to waking up, i would haf turned violent. Ha.. juz kidding..!

Went for a overnight mahjong session last night at kaiping's house... she's one of my primary sch friends whom i keep contact with... was damn bored these few days man, u can see from the frequent posts coming out from last week and u can imagine this skinny bummer on the chair, typing out nonsense while blasting the room with constant streams of MP3s. A typical computer freak, i must say... so i was glad there was a mahjong session...


The session started out smoothly for me but unfortunately as time passed to the 2nd and 3rd, my luck diminished like a candle flame snuffed out . Za Ba Lang tiles as they call it. From the winner of the 1st round turned out that i became the big loser man. This is bullshit man. Frequent mahjong players believes in lotsa superstition, and i'm one of them... one particular incident was when i was opening up my drawer to pay money my entire drawer fell ou, dropping onto the floor... bad omen dude, and unsurprisingly it turned out that the chips that fell on the floor conveniently scooted back to the pockets of the other kakis.

Common Chinese saying : Qing chang shi yi, Du Chang de yi! haha... wud a saying... didnt see it happen to me during the mahjong session. Cupid and Mr Mahjong dun know each other well i guess... haha... cold joke.

Anywayz i will be working for DKNY for a week starting this friday! Pay's ok, but i think the working hours will be quite tiring, but it's just one week, think i can handle it.

Anywayz, immersing yourself in work is a best medicine for you-know-wud stuff. haha.

Or u guys rather see me ramble about your nightmares or descriptions of hottest night spots in Singapore? ;)

Bored person at work.

Boredz... Wong at 5:35 PM

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Saturday, June 19, 2004

Dreams.

i woke up this morning asking myself this elusive question : What are Dreams and what effects can they possibly inflict onto us? Common answers would be : They are forecasts of my future told in an alternate reality. Another one would be : What happens in dreams, don't usually happen when u wake up. The latter happens to be the more stronger answer of both. Ha.

My personal feeling of dreams is what you cannot experience in your real life, u would tend to want to do so during your dreams. One simple example was when i was watching a show introducing the wonders of the world, one of them particularly the Grand Canyon. On that night itself, i dreamt i was at the Grand Canyon, marvelling at such a magestic spectacle. Incidentally, my wish is to travel around the world at least once. Obviously i'm not able to do right now. But to experience such a wonderful feeling in your dreams, it is simply indescribable. Up to the point where u don't want to wake up.

Ever experienced dreams that u can connect even after u wake up in the middle of the night? I'm sure most of us have. And usually, such dreams are the best.

However, most of us won't forget dreams that picture us running away from a particular someone, falling from the sky and never reaching the ground?

Almost everyone has experienced one or more dreams that contain anxiety or outright fear. For some, unpleasant dreams or nightmares recur repeatedly; for others, the content may change while the theme remains the same, such as scenes of falling, or of being pursued or attacked, late or unprepared for a presentation or an exam, stuck in slow motion, unable to move or scream, or even naked in public ( !!! ), to name a few common themes. This type of experience, when unpleasant, is usually associated with lack of progress by the dreamer to recognize and solve related conflicts in life.

I began to be increasingly interested in this particular topic ; i went to a website talking about such things and they gave some possible explanations of why we experience bad dreams :

· chase or attack : The pursuer usually represents a fearful aspect of our shadow, and hence an exaggerated version of a denied or inhibited portion of our own personality that would benefit us if integrated and appropriately expressed. (ideal outcome: standing our ground, facing and dialoguing with our pursuer, and eventually, acceptance and embrace)

· falling dream : Am I feeling heavy, unsupported, worried about something? How can I feel freer, lighter? Also: do I need to be more grounded? (ideal outcome: feeling safe, landing, floating or flying)

· car out of control : Is life too hectic, out of control? How could I slow down, act more peacefully and "enjoy the ride"? (ideal outcome: driving well & within speed limits, walking peacefully)

· unprepared, late for or failing an exam : Am I feeling unprepared for some upcoming event? Unconfident about my performance? Am I worrying needlessly or do I actually need more preparation in order to feel confident and do a good job? (ideal outcome: feeling assured about oneself, performing well)

· stuck in slow motion, unable to move or make any noise : Where am I feeling stuck in life, like I’m getting nowhere or unable to voice my true feelings? What can I do to change it? (ideal outcome: relaxation and acceptance, and eventually, peaceful action & self-expression)

· embarrassed to be nude or naked in public, though nobody seems to notice or mind : Where in life am I feeling unconfident, embarrassed, unskilled? This type of dream is usually pointing out, by the fact that the other characters in the dream don’t seem to notice, that we are the only one viewing our self this way, and usually mistakenly so. (ideal outcome: comfortable with oneself as is, confident)

· personal injury, dismemberment : What part of my life—not usually the physical body—have I been neglecting, mistreating, forgetting—i.e. dis-membering as opposed to remembering? (ideal outcome: healing)

· trapped, locked in : Where am I feeling trapped in life? How might I open myself up to a new perspective, and explore new courses of action? (ideal outcome: breaking out, exploration)

· drowning, threatening waves, tsunami (tidal waves) or flooding : Am I blocking, denying or feeling overwhelmed by my emotions? How might I better acknowledge, accept, and feel these feelings—which often include vulnerability? (ideal outcome: swimming, surfing, breathing underwater)

· helpless, abandoned, or crying baby, monkey, bunny or small animal : Have I been taking care of my "inner child"? Maybe I need to laugh more, play outdoors, express my creativity, be more spontaneous, or enjoy more personal warmth and intimacy? (ideal outcome: caring for baby or animal, playing, simply having fun)

These are suggestions pertaining to common nightmares one would experience...

After reading all this you might actually remember those weird dreams that you encountered rite? After reading a gist of this entire website i was compelled to read the entire content. The information seemed so enlightening, and made me want to analyse my dreams even further. What even made me chuckle was the title of the webpage : Nightmares? Bad Dreams? Recurring Dreams? Lucky YOU!

One particular type of dream which i find important. These Dreams are called Precognitive Dreams, Premonitions & Warning Dreams.These dreams and nightmares are intended as guidance or warnings on a very practical level. One example quoted in the website :

A day before the Titanic's demise, a woman on the infamous ship dreamt of the horrible event that was to occur the next day. She told her husband, who scoffed at her worries and ignored her pleas. However, the dream so affected her that she secretly prepared herself the night before and had all her children sleep in their warm clothes in order to be ready at a moment's notice. During the night, when the ship struck the iceberg, she and her children managed to escape and be rescued. Her husband, sadly, went down with the ship.

So instead of wishing you sweet dreams, which you’ve heard many times before, I will go one step further, with your greatest fulfillment in mind, and wish you truly pleasant nightmares. :)

For more information please check out this wonderful website : http://www.dreams.ca/




Boredz... Wong at 3:01 PM

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Friday, June 18, 2004

When was the last time i went clubbing? i don't really remember...

I recieved a call at around noon from my friend Winston, asking me to go Zouk tonight. Looking at my watch and upon seeing the date i realised it's Wed night,which simply means tonight is the famed theme night of singapore's hottest night spot : Mambo Jambo Night. Apart from the fact that ladies go in for free due to the fact that it's Ladies Night ( which means hot girls tend to frequent night spots on this particular night, every week ), the DJ pumps out continuous streams of retro music which i like. Funny enough, these retro songs tend to be the mainstay of the DJ's music list every week, and ever since Mambo Jambo started eons ago, some avid dancers began to think out their unique pattern of dance moves suiting the lyrics of each song. On the dance floor, where there are platforms where dancers would shake their bon bon whilst standing above their counterparts. Indeed, on these platforms, these dancers dance non stop to the music, and they always dance that 'unique ' pattern of dance moves.
Something like when the lyric ' pray ' is sounded out, u would clap ur hands together, look up in the ceiling and look as if u need the divine power of God, Buddha, or Allah to grant u the wish of winning Toto. Yea, it does sound a little bit absurd but hey, it's true.

Apart from the dancing, the drinks there are expensive. To curb this fact, Zouk introduces Midnight Madness, which means from 11- 12 pm, drinks are for one-for-one. Two for the price of one. The prices are effectively cut to half. Sad to say even with this offer i wasnt abit tempted to get drunk. Not when my wallet's whispering.

However as i was on the dance floor i messaged my cousin whether he was around. My cousin has been frequently zouk ever since he could, and i think he's quite well known... haha... he replied and said he was around the member's corner and asked me up for a drink... i left my friends for a while to look for him... and also to find out how the members' corner looks like. When i reached the entrance of the members' arena, i was washed away. Apart from the fact that the gals look like angels from heaven, there was a seemingly strong aura emitting out. One of wealthiness. For me whose wallet would fly away with a whisk of a finger, i was obviously taken aback.

Nevertheless my cousin brought me in, and after some squeezing we reached his seat. There was a bottle of unfinished liquor on the table, and he poured me a glass. We chatted for a while, and at the point where my glass would be finished by one last sip, he would fill my glass again. This process followed a few times and i began to get defensive over my glass. Lol, cousin, u cant get me drunk that easily. Much as i wanted to be. After thinking, Drinking to drown my sorrows? this only happens in drama serials for me... but sometimes, it always feels so good to forget everything...

The rest of my night ensued on the dancefloor till 3 am. Was so tired but my friends just wanted to go on.

Picking up girls? i dun even have a pick-up to boast of. Even so, i won't do such things anyway.

Ever knew the feeling of drunk-ness? Always feels like u are floating around, yet u wake up on ur own puke. :)

This post is for pple who's never been to Zouk before. It's not a complete account of how Zouk is, cuz i'm not obliged to divulge them to you. U want to see for yourself? Pay ur own 20 bucks.

hopefully this post is interesting enough to make a day for anyone... :)

Working? cheer up... it beats staying at home and wondering about stuff. Keeps ya occupied yea?

Boredz... Wong at 10:43 AM

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Usually when u are serving NS u tend to forgo stuff like watching news and reading the newspapers... i was one such case. Five days in camp with almost nothing to do except for oufield exercises and petty work, we would spend our free time chatting with our camp mates or we would spend it doing our favourite pastime. Yea, some of u guys out there might have already knew this answer. Spending most of your free time catching 40 winks is no joke. It is the official favourite pastime in my battery line at least.

Before i digress further on the pros and cons of napping, i would touch back on the main topic of the day : keeping up-to-date with the current affairs of the world. Being one who officially fuked off from camp a few weeks ago, i began to spark an interest in reading The Straits Times and watching Channel News Asia. Nevertheless, having an growing interest did not make me an avid one. One particular day, while i was casually sipping on my 4th knit of Absolut Vanilla, ( which was only yesterday :), and im getting hooked on vodka ) my friend Winson msged me something that jump out of my seat. It read : CCB ( acroymn for a common hokkien vulgarity ) , NS life kenna cut from 2 1/2 years to 2 years. I called him and asked him where did he get such information. Without hesistation he ordered me to switch on my TV and go to Channel News Asia. As the screen flickered, signalling the change of another channel, indeed, there it was, our dear defense minister, Teo Chee Hean, announcing the change in Parliarment. So it's official : Guys like us who slog our 12-13 years in education do not have to suffer another 6 months of conscription.

Some pple might question the motives of reducing national service life : is the SAF having a low budget? did the pressure from parents broke thru to the government? i don't know. There are tons of reasons one might think of, ridiculous ones maybe, but i don't give a heck damn.

For avid readers of my blog who intend to know the full details of such a monumental change, pls do not harbour such a hope. In my own opinion, this is my blog, it should be about me! Simply saying, let's see how much of this change affects me directly...

1) Due to the reduction of national service, NSFs like me who are still in service would get a maximum of 2 months reduction in NS life. However, the earliest stated time that i can ORD is 30 June. which means i get only a 1 month reduction from my original ORD Date ( 01/08/04 ).

2) In the first place, im already on off and leave till the 1st of august. In fact, with this change, i am coerced to take leave from next Monday onwards till my new ORD date( 30/06/04 ). Unconsumed leave would be converted to cash and returned to us.

3) If i ORD on the 30th June this month, would this mean my pay on july which i originally would collect would be gone? Haha, as my friend put it, this month of july was meant to to stay at home, shake our legs, and still be enjoying ourselves cuz we would have an allowance for july. It's like ' waiting for retirement, waiting for your pension, and all of a sudden your company retrenches you, eating ur pension up. Sounds logically hypocritical in a warped sort of way.

My batch of NSFs who enlisted during Apr 2002 seems to be like guinea pigs. Firstly, we are the ONLY batch who went thru the tormenting 10 day field camp during our recruit stint. Now, with this change we are the ONLY batch which are the most affected of all.

But one thing we must understand in life is, that change is inevitable. Some people might say:' why this change nv come earlier? then i can ORD liow! ' Lol... for people like us, as our CO put it in a apt manner : you all have been running this race and u are almost reaching the end, only to realise now that the finishing line is 10 metres behind. Funny, but true.

For Singaporean youths now, it's a piece of news they would never regret hearing.

Somehow or rather, i don't really think the news is a bad or good one. Im going to get my pink IC anyway, only this time sooner.

It's just a post from a bored guy. you dun have to read it anyway. Im just want to do something, to keep me from thinking about stuff.

And i don't think it's working.

Boredz... Wong at 8:02 PM

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

juz back from watching tu ran fa cai with mum and my brother... that 4d movie directed by jack neo. really funny show, but recommended if u know some hokkien. lucky i learnt it when i was in camp... cuz most conversations were made in that dialect. 4D any1? ;)

hmm... the last time i watched a movie with mum was i think sec school... it was ages ago man...

watched initial D last night, couldnt get to sleep man. either my body is accustomed to late nights due to me watching euro cup matches for the past few nights, or it's other stuff which i dun wanna elaborate. sometimes when u're at home doing nothing u like to think about many stuffs rite?

woke up and found my eyes hard to open... i think they're crusted up due to dried tears? i dunno... bad dream... sad dream perhaps? i dunno... ha... tears... am i too emotional a person... i dunno...but i do shed some tears when i watch sad scenes in shows or movies... that's pure human nature for ya... being someone full of feelings...
i dunno... sometimes being too much feeling is bad. furthermore im one who tends to keep my feelings to myself, and im shy by nature... wud more??

OH Man... growing pains? geez, im 21 this year ! fuck man.

The grass is always greener on the other side. But im satiable. My grass doesnt have to be THAT GREEN!

i just wanna lead a simple life. someone to love, to care for... i think it's not alot to ask for rite?

i dunno... im so confused now.

current song playing : Solitaire by Clay Aiken

Boredz... Wong at 2:24 PM

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Sunday, June 13, 2004

Haven been blogging for this few days cuz i was kinda preoccupied with sutff. Mainly cuz of my driving test result... yea i flunked it again, abeit this time i met with a strict tester, shan't elaborate more about it, since failing is failing.

Went back to camp on the 9th and 10th for my dental and medical FFI... some checkups i have to do before i can ORD... returned all my field equipment. So everything's kinda settled now, and on the 10th me and my camp mates went ktv... 4 hour session, sang till my throat went hoarse although there were 9 pple.

Right now im thinking wud colour should i use to dye my hair...hee...

Right now i have whole lot of time to focus on many stuffs... since i wont be going back camp anymore... i hope...

thinking once more...

I believe that if I should die, and you were to walk near my grave, from the very depths of the earth I would hear your footsteps.

To the bearer of such love, i salute you.

Boredz... Wong at 5:20 PM

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

KRACK!

That's the sound of the beer can being opened... found one can lying in one corner of my fridge. Taking a big gulp of it and i begin my post...

Mood : Down :(

I recently started my driving revisions and to my relief i find that my control of a manual shift car is still OK. Come to think of it, my not so recent experience of drivin without a license gave me valauble lessons to learn, simple things like changing lanes seemed so much easier, my turning seems more smooth. Indeed, such things do count in my driving test next monday, but i do believe that luck does exist. And would luck shake my hands and become my ally, or shirk my existence, without giving me a damn? i shudder that that thought. It's my third time taking the dreaded driving test and i have been hit with distraught traffic conditions, clumsy cyclists along the road, or inconsiderate taxi drivers who dun give a hoot damn of who's driving on the road. Right now, i can only hope for the best. I borrowed a sum of money from my friend so that i could take the revisions. As jeremy told me yesterday, if i fail on monday, means i have changed handphones 3 times. Kinda true, but i dun buy such expensive handphones. Ha.

Wish me luck. Third time lucky perhaps? may luck be on my side.







Boredz... Wong at 6:41 PM

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Tuesday, June 01, 2004

With the end of a night in solitude, i wake up the next day, dazed from dreams i cant piece together, yet seem so true while i was in them. My eyes, against all odds, began to allow light to seep through, the blazing sunlight on my dliated pupils made my body close them again. I started to open them once more, this time away from the direction of the windows, and started to adjust myself properly for the start of a new day...

Simple routine : Specs on, hands to my T610, check for msgs... reply if there's any, lie back on my bed after that. Mum comes nagging, looks at the time, 1200... still early to me. Yet i crawl out of bed and proceeded to my comp. Good, Brother's not there. He's having his school holidays now, so he's gonna be around the house... alwayz have to keep sharing the comp with him...

Indeed, my days so far had been thus. Ever since i started clearing my off last week, my daily routine in the morning is kinda standard. Monotonous in a sense, but still beats life in camp, kinda miss the guys back there though, although i would nv miss the sai kangs... bleh.

Met up wif val for dinner on sat night... shopped around before stopping over at Spinelli's ( correct spelling hee ) for a drink... had a nice talk with her...

Met up with Fy and Jere later, chit chat session once more...

Sunday... did nothing... lazed around at home, chatted on the phone.

Monday... played mahjong at val's house... 3 rounds at that... im the big winner... again... wahaha...

Tues : Same as Sunday. Only better cuz got CH 8 dramas to watch... haha.

AND i dun think my week's gonna get better... my driving revision's started this friday... and im booking in tonight! for guard duty tomolo... sheesh...

Boredz... Wong at 11:59 PM

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